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Friday, October 29, 2004
Gosh, i'm finally down with my blog. Was searching for babies photos but could not find it... So decided to use just a plain and simple background and layout. Hope it'd look much relaxing and soothing. Wanted to add songs into it but i'm not sure how it should be done... Couldn't ask for help as i'm doing this at such a wee hour. First time changing the skin by myself and it was really tough man. Or maybe coz i just suck at it. Went to watch "Cellular" with HBFs then went for supper with alittle sight-seeing. Came back roughly 'bout 5am and talked to brother alittle while before updating my blog. Today wasn't really a pleasant day though... I'm struck with guilt right at this point of time. I've hurt someone after i've led her on for some time... I'm sorry for what i've done but... It's really hard for me ya. Do understand =) Take care of yourself alrite. I'll be there still! =)
|| I realised i've been in love ever since 9th of Feb. ||
Wednesday, October 27, 2004
I'm really really confuse of what i'm suppose to do... I don't know my feelings towards her, she's nice and sweet, and i'm afraid of hurting her further. Chemistry did spark but not for long, memories are there but not that deep, feelings were there, that's why i'm finding it hard to breathe. Should i just be straightforward or just let time pass...? I really don't know. I just ended a relationship few months back, and i'm unready for the next. 1 year of being attached, now that i'm single, the feelings would be alittle different but as time passes, i'm sure it'll get better. To the person ( you know who are you ), i think it'd be a better idea if we can let some time off each other aight. When i'm done with my stuff, then we shall see alrite. I just read her blog not long ago and i'm finding myself of guilty of what i've done... I shouldn't have said those words to her when i wasn't even certain of myself. I'm sorry if i've let you down but just that i'm afraid of hurting you more. It sounds ironic and i'm fickle... I don't know what i really want. Let me get over the past completely, before i move on to the next level okay? Thanks for your blessings and supports, i appreciate that very much. Alrite, i shall blog maybe later on or tomorrow...? Meeting Huiling later to study @ Heeren's spinelli. Cya guys and take care.
|| I realised i've been in love ever since 9th of Feb. ||
Tuesday, October 26, 2004
Song: Kavana - Won't you wait for me. For the past few days, i've met a few people along the way. Wouldn't like to name them out as i'm too tired on elaborating them. Went clubbing last friday with R-er, Jonathan and Daryl. Was pretty nice even if there weren't many of us. Saw quite a few cais down there but all lians... So forget it. I'm not really sure what i've been doing for the entire past week but was just plain rotting and home and trying to stuff myself with books. O's coming really fast... I can feel the pressure from it this time round. Things are going back to where it dropped... Perhaps that's life ya. But one thing never changes is the way i am. I'm not gonna get affected by anyone of these mishaps even though it has done major impact in my life before. I shan't be bothered with it. I can only remember Lydia, who is in the Aus, called me just a few days back to talk 'bout some stuff. Was pretty nice hearing her voice and knowing that she's doing fine. I really appreciate that Lydia, thanks alot. =) I'm too tired and exhausted to blog that much now... I'm feeling rather lethargic and my eyes are drowsy. Perhaps i should sum this all up 'bout what happened today. Met a friend of mine to study at library, then head down to Macdonalds with Fan and Eugene. Went back home and waited for my brother to come back then headed down to play billard. Sucks. I didn't even have the mood to... I've gotta study in awhile's time, in the meantime, i would like to apologise as i haven't been updating my blog that much.... But still, thanks for tagging anywae. Alrite, gotta go now. Take care guys.
|| I realised i've been in love ever since 9th of Feb. ||
Wednesday, October 20, 2004
Phew. I don't know what brings me here, but just felt the urge to have something to type. Went out billard with my brother, sean, sern zhi and jesper, played alittle soccer then watch butterfly effect over my place. And sean really brighten up my day when he brought me the HILARY DUFF POSTER !!! It's now right on top of my computer screen !!! She's just so fabulously, wonderfully, gorgeously, superberly and VERY VERY CUTE! ( pardon my english usage. ) Haven't been doing much stuff these days... But most likely going clubbing with my chionging khakis on friday! Gawd. I miss them so much that i'm starting to wonder whether i'm gay. HAHA. Anyway, i've gotta go study now. Sorry for the boring posts these days... Gotta really mug hard for my exams which gonna happen in about less than 10 days' time. ( PS : was hoping that i'll be able to use different colours everytime. so don't mind the pink eh => )
|| I realised i've been in love ever since 9th of Feb. ||
Tuesday, October 19, 2004
These past few days haven't been a really good one... Perhaps, one of the worst days i have been... Things aren't like the way they used to be. Life changes, people change as well, love's ever changing as well. But this time, things are going for the worse instead of picking up. I have to thank quite a few people who stay by my side even through such turbulence... Clara, for always being there and giving me the morale support. HBFs, be it anyone, you guys are the true friends who never fails to stand by my side even when i've done you guys wrong. Esther, for being the closest and perhaps, the only one who will never walk out on me for this lifetime. Shufen, for being able to understand the way i'm feeling right now and giving me advices. Terrick, the one who appears to be the one i respect the most for telling me, what i need to do, and have to do. Thank you guys. I'm not sure how to start or begin the past few days of my life... But it wasn't easy. Perhaps i should just leave it alone and let it flow for some of the things that may seem major to others, ain't what i'm feeling right now. What i really matter most is the love of my life, Novi. It's really upsetting to see her transforming into someone else... Someone who seems do distant, and at the same time, a mystery. I've spent years before to actually unsolve such mystery, but i doubt i'll have the strength and energy to do it once more. Once bitten, twice shy. I'm afraid of losing it all even if i try... I surrender. Seriously, i don't believe in a blog of stating what i do all the day and night... I'd prefer to voice out what i feel deep within. To those who frequent my blog, i appreciate it alot guys. I'll try and spend more time doing so alrite. And once again, thanks to those who have been in my life. You guys are the best thing that could ever happen. =>
|| I realised i've been in love ever since 9th of Feb. ||
Sunday, October 17, 2004
Went out on friday with family to get new pair of shoes, head down to marche after that. Met up with my brother and his friends as they were celebrating his birthday. Went to Cine to play billard, then went to ktv. Left town at prob. 6, then went back home. Woke up, took a shower, then head down to HBF's chalet. Did nothing much except rotting down there... Saw a couple of pple i haven't seen for ages; retardo, grinch, fallen, foxy, zan. Something terrible happened halfway through the chalet; an act of a fcuked up bitch. Shan't probe further anymore. Food was great, soccer was bad. Went back home in the morning and woke up just an hour ago... Realise that i haven't been studying hard enough. Time to buck up and no more going out unless it's weekends.
|| I realised i've been in love ever since 9th of Feb. ||
Wednesday, October 13, 2004
Been hanging out with Esther and Meiqi these past few days. Hardly get to see HBFs so often.. Saw Kelvin aka Seng Eng 2 days back. Went for dinner along with Clara and Sherine then head down to my pool side to catch up on our lives. Been quite some time since i last saw him, still the same but grown mature over the years. He's been one of my closest friends of all time even though we seldom go out as often as before... Really miss those days at the old LAN shop located at Grandlink. Met up with Esther and Meiqi yesterday... But with Kenneth aka Bape and his 2 friends, Melvin and Jeffrey. Coincidentally, Jeffrey's friends are also my friends back in Secondary Sch. Talked quite alot with them over my pool side AGAIN. Guess it's gotta be my second home in times to come. Went back when Meiqi and Esther felt tired... Gals are so typical... Always tired and sleepy! And ya, the funny thing 'bout Esther till today is that, she's afraid of going to toilet alone. Was asked to accompany her to toilet and when i scared her when i said stuffs like careful of the toilet bowl, there might be hand reaching out for you. LOL, she REFUSED to go until i convinced her that i will be waiting for her outside. HAHAHAHAHAA. The night ended in a simple manner... Simplicity is perfection eh. Oh ya, took a couple of pics with Esther and Meiqi. They are just so sweet and perfect! Love ya gals. :) P.S - Refer to gugglez.blogspot.com for the pics.
|| I realised i've been in love ever since 9th of Feb. ||
Sunday, October 10, 2004
Been chilling out these past few days with friends, either watching or playing soccer. Guess the craze for soccer is back again! It's indeed a very good hobby as little money is required, merely just for drinks and it helps us to lose weight! Man, that's what we are dying to do! Now, without soccer for just a day or two, it makes us feel so empty! We are so addicted to it! Went out with opti, kingred and foxy who was previously known as a butch has transformed into a gay. Had dinner with my family then head down to opti's house to watch soccer, "England vs Wales". As expected, England won, leading 2 goals ahead of the oppenent. Went home at around 3+ as i was infected with their virus. One for all, all for one. All gonna fall sick within this week then... Sharing drinks and ciggs. Alrite, gotta stop here as i'm rushing out for another soccer game with hbf guys. Time to quit smoking, sports for life! Came back right after soccer, took a shower and went out again to meet Meiqi and Guggles. Met at Coffee Club, left prob. bout an hour or so... Went to Guggles' place to get car then head down East Coast. Chilled for like 15mins when Meiqi hurried us because she can't hold her bladder any longer. But before heading my place for the toilet, we headed down to Carpark H. Yea, we were all kpo on others having their private 'activities' in the car. AND I TRIED DRIVING FOR THE FIRST TIME! IT WAS SO FCUKING FUN BUT I NEARLY KNOCKED ONTO A FREAKING MERCS. HAHAHAHA! Guggles was so nervous and UNWILLING to allow me to drive after that. Dammit, gotta wait for 4 more months before i can actually apply for driving license. Went to my pool again to chill again. Imagine so much of chillings within just a night. But it was quite relax and tranquil by the beach and pool... Simple and nice. Went home after sending them off... Shortly after that, met up with MeiQi again for supper. This time without Guggles but with another guy whom i've seen before many years back. Kinda know him for who he is but didn't know him that well. Went back home after supper at Geylang. And i've been slacking these past few days. It's time for me to start mugging once the sun's up. Not much time to delay!
|| I realised i've been in love ever since 9th of Feb. ||
Wednesday, October 06, 2004
Feelings so sore right now. So tired and aching... Went for soccer with HBFs yesterday at Tampines. Gawd, it's been a long time since i last sweat myself out. And guess what, we were all totally exhausted after it. Played for a couple of hours but it sure was nice. Went to a coffeeshop to chill and guess who came. It's ESTHER aka GUGGLES !!! I was so glad to see her after a period of time. She's almost the same, just put on alittle weight here and there but still looks as gorgeous though. She drove all the way down from her house to my place... Awww, my personal chauffeur. Lols. Her driving skills are absolutely superb and exciting! She would almost make every comments on ever vehicles that went past her. And she'd just SCREAM like nobody's business if the car was too near hers. Imagine someone the height of 1.57m driving a Nissan car, bet she would have to pull her seat right to the front before her legs could actually reach for the pedal :P She drove me back and we sat by the pool to catch up on our lives. A chat of whereby half the time she was suaning me away and listening to my 'plight'. My brother came down and she got a shock of her life. She was examining his and my face and make comparison between both. Lols. And yeap, i do miss her after so long =) Went back home and played some fcuked up online league for CS when i'm supposed to be MIA-ing. Damnit, i'm not gonna touch CS anymore! Exams are drawing nearer and i don't wish to dig another grave for myself again. This time if i fcuk it up, i would end up going overseas or kill myself. Once bitten, twice shy. I'm gonna allow myself to let anyone down again... It's time to redeem and amend... Good day to all.
|| I realised i've been in love ever since 9th of Feb. ||
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